Stress comes with Valentine's Day

As every year, February comes around and with that people are lovey and look forward to Valentine's day... This February; at least for me; this has been a very stressful month. And we aren't even half way through it!

I have a list:

• School
• Housing
• People
• Summer job
• School
• Portfolio
• People
• Housing
• School

Has anyone made a connection yet? haha. Well, seeing that I didn't do as well as I anticipated during the first semester means that there is extra stress for this semester to raise my average so I can get into Co-op as well as major in Fine Arts. The due date for the portfolio is coming up and it's stressing me out that I don't like half of the projects that I had completed before... At least Reading Week is next week and so I will submerge myself into drawing and painting and such. I don't think I will see much of the light of day D: Needing higher grades has always... ALWAYS bothered me; just now the pressure is on! There is only one more midterm this month I'm thankful because I already had 2... and both of the marks aren't up yet! ): The exam schedule just came up and my last exam is on April 13th... Summer here I come!

Another reoccurring item on my list was housing if you haven't noticed... That means even after looking for so long (at least Lee and I have been looking for weeks; I can't really say the same for others) we still haven't found the right place I guess. There are a few more tours and then we can see what place we want to settle down in the next year. I don't understand some people's preferences but there's one huge thing that I care about it doesn't seem like others really care about: Rent. The place that some of the the people want is really expensive, even though it is close. I just can't get over the price... There are a couple of factors but all in all I think that I would rather live farther away for cheaper. Or even in a basement *hinthint* Blah. Lee and I want to finish this by the end of this week because i'm going back home on Friday but we cannot seem to get it together. We should have been able to figure this out 5 tours ago! Arghh, I'm starting to lose my hair... =3=

People... There are so many people getting on my nerves recently. Some people more important than others but I can't seem to get it all together. I hate the fact that I can't get in contact with people and people don't listen to me. I'll stop here or else I may say a couple of things I may regret.

The final thing is not stressing me out tooooo much but after not getting hired in the plaza across the street (not even contacted!) I'm getting a bit nervous... I've been meaning to call Mommy to talk about it but I keep on calling her and getting side tracked. Originally I was thinking about just working retail, Reading week was meant for printing out my resume and bringing multiple multiple copies to the mall. I was also thinking of being a waitress; as weird as it may sound it has always been a little fantasy of mine. I know that my image would be shattered forever if I got the job but it still sounds pretty fun. Makes me wish I knew someone who owned a restaurant restaurant. No fast food places pleasee! D: Rawr, and lastly I was thinking of just a lackey job for some people, I don't really know but I was hoping that my Mom knew some people who just needed some summer help.

I'm just a little lost and just a little stressed. One other stress was looming over my head but recently went away (: Yay! Won't get into that one though.

Reading week that's coming up will be filled with art, art, snowboarding, family, art and friends. I'll be sure to tell you guys about it when the time comes, and I'll take some awesome pictures I swear! Just hope I can get through this week first!

- Rebecca